Glimpses

As a little girl, I always felt like I was on the wrong side of the glass. My sister was on one side with all the flashing lights and balloons and fun things, and I was on the other side with the left overs. As I got older, I realized that what I saw was nothing but false glamor. It wasn't all that it seemed. But the one thing that I was correct with, was that I was on one side of the glass, and my sister has always been on the other. Every now and then the glass alters and I'm able to glimpse her as if I'm almost on that same side, but the next thing I know is that darn glass is there again. Preventing us from really seeing one anothers perspectives for very long.

Here's the thing that I realized tonight. I am so grateful for the glimpses. I would much rather have them, than not. Though she and I are most definitely very different in most ways, we are similar in several. I am grateful for those glimpses in time when she and I can come together and have real conversations. One's that are based on truth and sincerity. I am grateful for those glimpses that allow for the glass to move enough that I see my sister. No longer parted by obstacles, but really see her and she see's me. I am grateful for glimpses like tonight.

October Confessional Block

To say that this post is MY idea would be..false. To say that this post 'title' is My idea would be..true. I altered the title a bit. Yay. So that's ok, right? Anyway, my friend was talking about how she has friends who have days of confession. I thought that was hilarious. So I thought I'd give it a whirl.

~ I hate commercials and yet, work for a marketing company.

~ I talk right out loud to other cars as I'm driving. I secretly think the other drivers must know what I'm saying if I voice out my words rather than keeping them bottled up in my head.

~ I used to watch a lot of movies and despised TV (going back to #1, plus I don't like feeling like I have to stay at home in order to watch 'my shows'). Now that I have DVR, I watch a little more TV and just fast forward. Oh, the power of the remote is awesome.

~ I find that when I'm busy, I worry about when I'm going to find time to do the everyday stuff. But when I have a spare moment, I veg out and forget that I need to do the everyday stuff during that time. Dangit!

~ I really dislike cliques. You hurt more than you realize when you are apart of one. I try to change up the groups a little bit. Having repeat friends in a group isn't a bad thing. But including different people continually and making them feel wanted and welcome is key. I'm just saying, if you're excluding...what does that say about you as a person? I try not to be that person.

~ It's amazing to me at how un-truthful people are with one another. I'll give an example with myself. When a person asks how we are doing, auto reply "Good!" When truth may be that we are struggling or whatever. I no longer answer with auto replies or if I do, I correct myself. I will say "ok" or something that feels truthful. I even have a friend who says "that's fine" when it's clearly NOT fine. Her motivation is she doesn't want the confrontation or the other person to feel bad but ultimately this just frustrates her more. So...Truth is best.

~ I read Elizabeth Smart's testimonial today and I started tearing up. I can't imagine a person going through all of that, let alone at age 14. Yes, I realize her experience was over 6 years ago.

Well, thanks for tuning into my first try at My Confessional Block (aka, random thoughts I've been having) ;)